here comes bidding again

round 1a gonna starts nxt mon...
haiz
my prediction for this sem bidding: i can get all my 5 modules in round 1a.
argh! but i hate to admit that i really feel stressed up come to think of this combi.

can i... really survive?

would it turn out to be a good thing?

i afraid i cant hold on anymore...
i afraid soon or later i will lose myself again.
i hope i can hear the solution from the bottom of my heart.
i tried.
but i cant hear it.
perhaps because i have not been listening to it, that's why now i have to break the walls that surround it before i can see it once more.